Am I Committed?

Lately, I've been questioning my commitment to the my search for the right guy. I obviously have a huge lack of it, proof of it being this blog. I've come to the realization that I'm not sure if I've ever really fully commited to very much at all lately. I'm not exactly reliable when it comes to committing to anything. I drop something as soon as a sign of interest creeps up. Example number one, cooking. I used to cook regularly, it was my stress reliever. I bought many cook books, had frequent trips to the grocery store, and then one day as soon as it was recognized as an actual interest, something I should pursue further, I dropped it. I'm not sure where those actions derive from. I just know that it is something that is recognizable in alot of what I do and contributes very much so to my overwheliming indeciveness. In conclusion, this very well may be a huge factor on why my search seems to be indefinite. Until I fully commit to finding him, I will always be constantly asking "Where is he already?".